January 12, 2006

Wow. Yesterday was rough. She is so resistant to this program. She's even making her treatment team scratch their heads over what to do about her. We all think that deep down she knows she needs help and really wants it, but right now she is fighting it with every ounce of power she has. Her therapist said she is at "high risk" for more self-harm and possibly suicide. That scares the hell out of me. We're coming up on 3-day weekend where she will be home the whole time and I am scared. I pray constantly. I cry frequently. I try not to let the little ones pick up on just how stressful and scared I am for her. I am so tired.

This morning was fine ... I guess. She's withdrawn again. Her eyes are so empty.