April 19, 2007

I am losing my mind. I thought I'd already posted this. Well, I will now, I suppose.

She's doing pretty good on her own. She and her friend found a really nice place. They are sharing a 5-bedroom house in a very nice area of town - one of the nicest - with 3 other girls - so that makes 5 girls in all in this house. We couldn't have picked a better arrangement for her had we found it ourselves. She says she's still taking her meds - most of the time - and we seem to all get along better now. Mostly. Of course, I'm not sure if she's still seeing her therapist and psychiatrist like she's supposed to, and that concerns me. But, all I can do now is trust that she will make the right decisions and learn from the bad choices that she will inevitably make. This growing up business is not easy.

Neither is this letting go.

April 2, 2007

She moved out yesterday. She packed up her car, and moved out. She's gonna be staying with a girlfriend while they look for an apartment together. I kept waiting for her to come home last night & announce "April Fools!" and that it was all just a big prank. But she didn't.
Who knew it would be a physical ache? This is like the first day of first grade times a million.
I know she'll be ok. I know we'll be ok. But right now ... well ... it sucks.

March 31, 2007

*yawn*
The dogs woke my husband up around 4:00 this morning. He got up to investigate and discovered that our daughter had snuck out of the house, breaking house rules and violating our trust. We text messaged her boyfriend on a hunch and found her over there. She came home & the fighting began.
I think she'll be moving out soon.

March 30, 2007

I made the decision this past week to go ahead and turn the first year of this blog into a book. It is now available in paperback HERE. I wanted to assure those who have posted comments to the blog all this time that no comments are included. It is just my ramblings and journalings, so no worries.

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Now that my daughter is 18, she is wanting more adult-type responsibilities. She wants to be responsible for taking her meds, for getting them refilled, for making and keeping her appointments ... and she's wanting to move out into her own place.
*nervous sigh*
So, we've been letting her. Except for the move out part. She doesn't have the income, yet, for that & it's really frustrating her. She's going to school full-time at the university and just started her second part-time job. This is an important life lesson for her and she's learning it takes a lot more than really wanting a really cool apartment to make it happen.

She's been doing ok with taking her meds & making and keeping her appointments. However, the refill thing is not being as easy as she thought, either. She's been out of her GABA for a few days now. It's at the pharmacy all refilled and ready for her to go pick it up, she just hasn't. Argh! I hope she makes it happen soon. At least the other meds are still onboard & she has been taking them regularly as prescribed.

Last weekend I was certified in Reiki I natural healing. I gave her a treatment last night & she really seemed to enjoy it. It calmed her right down. I hope she'll let this be a regular thing. I really think it will help her a lot. In fact, I know it will.

March 12, 2007

They changed her meds again. Hooray! She is now taking Lamictal, a medication used to treat Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. She's 2 weeks into it and so far it's being pretty good for her. I hope this means they may have found "the one" that works. *crosses fingers*

February 18, 2007

Oh, boy, are we not liking the Aderal! We didn't like it when she was on it in junior high, we don't like it now. She's called her psychiatrist and left a message about it. Hopefully we can get it changed before we all go insane. Icky bad stuff! It's like meth in pill form. Horrible horrible horrible! She's bouncing off the walls on it ... that is until it wears off. Then it's crash and burn. She gets grumpy and mouthy and just all around nasty. Do not like the Aderal. Not at all.

February 13, 2007

She saw her psychiatrist yesterday. Good visit. They've decided to ween her off of the Prozac now. She goes back in 2 weeks to see how she's adjusting to that & may take her completely off it then. They've also put her on a BioProgesterone capsule & Aderal (for ADD) to go along with the progesterone cream & GABBA complex she's already taking. She's happy and very confident about it.

And she starts her new job today as a computer lab tech at the University. Hooray!