January 11, 2006: part 2
The family session today was so hard for me. My daughter is "very high risk" and if she doesn't start working the program soon she is in imminent danger. I feel like such an awful mother right now. The therapist assured us that we are doing everything right and that we are doing all we can for her, but they are not even sure what else to try. If this doesn't work ... if this doesn't save her ... if she does the unimaginable ... what do I do?
posted by Leisl | 3:13 PM
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My heart goes out to you and I am so sorry that you are feeling so scared.
It sounds like you are doing everything that you can, you just have to trust that she won't hurt herself in a permanent way. I wish like you that there was some guarantee.
Just when I think that things are going well I find out that she has been cutting again, we were at the doctors today for a clinic visit for her diabetes and the doctor is aware of her cutting. We were discussing the scarring and she wouldn't show us one of her arms, apparently she has cut recently. I didn't even know.
The scariest thing for me is that my daughter wears an insulin pump and insulin in large doses is fatal. I am hoping that she doesn't just have a bad day one day and decide to take an overdose of insulin. There isn't much I can do as I am not with her every minute.
Keep strong and don't stop letting her know just how very much you love her. I will say a prayer for you.
Thank you. It's comforting to know I'm not alone in this. Maybe we can join our "mom strengths" and pull our beautiful daughters through this together. I'll pray for you, too.
*hugs*
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