July 7, 2006
I haven't been posting as much lately. This is a good thing. Life here is so ... so ... normal now. My daughter is quite the average teen, now, with average teen drama and reactions. Nothing over the top, no reasons to worry. It's nice. She'll be starting school at the University the end of next month and is really looking forward to it. She just needs to slow down long enough to get registered for her classes. I am very excited for her future.
posted by Leisl | 9:02 AM
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I am so happy for you that things have worked out so well. I want normal. I thought that we were getting closer but I am not sure, I really feel that she could cut again with the right situation.
I visited my daughter at camp yesterday and although things have been good, she is feeling down. She feels she doesn't fit in with the other girls in her cabin. They are girly girls and she is a tomboy. She asked me to take her home, even though she knows it isn't an option.
I told her to make every effort to fit in and she got upset with me and said that she wants people to like her for who she is and not who she pretends to be. Err, she is right, but she separates herself from them and then gets depressed.
She is finally getting some colour on her arms and she was proud to show me how little the scars show up now. I hope she doesn't cut again.
I wish that I could take all her sadness away, unfortunately I can't and she needs to learn how to deal with these situations. She just resists and then gets depressed. The camp is aware of her situation and they promise to keep an eye on her for me.
My oldest daughter is now working at the camp so she will keep an eye on her for me although they won't see a ton of each other.
I am away up north (I live in Ontario, Canada) at the cottage, all alone. It feels so good not to have to look after anyone or anything!
I hope you are having a good summer and thanks again for your blog. You are someone who I can relate to when you post. Most of my friends have no clue what we have and are going through. They can't even imagine.
Take care.
*hugs*
I wish we could take all their pain away. We can't. I think that, as a parent, is the hardest part of it all. As parent, we are supposed to be able to "kiss it and make it better" and when that just doesn't work ... *sigh*
Hang in there. Your daughter is an amazing woman and will come out of this experience all the stronger and more empathic for it. As will you.
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