February 21, 2006

She's been a little down - sad, almost - the last couple of days. Of course, she perks right up as soon as her boyfriend calls or comes over. I'm sure most of that is normal teen love and hormones, but it still worries me a little. We're going to keep an cautious eye on her, just the same.

She left her clarinet home today - normal thing for her to do. Aggravating, but normal. But instead of chewing me out for it and demanding that I bring it to her at school NOW, she laughed at herself and asked if I'd please bring it to her next time I'm out and about. Wow.



Me? I'm back to not sleeping so good the last couple of nights. I don't know why. I think I'm just still waiting to see if things are going to continue improving or if we're gearing up for a big set-back. I really do hope things keep improving, but I'm not so naive as to think we're done with the hard stuff. I still have a very hard time trusting her. I'm trying to, but it's so hard. I know it's going to take time and I'm going to have to risk disappointment, but ... oh, geez. I don't like this feeling. Not one bit. But things are still so much better than they were even two months ago. I just need to trust that ... and trust that it will continue to get better each day.